THE UNIVERSE IS A FUNNY THING…
It seems that lately the universe has been sending me funny messages. Well, perhaps ‘funny’ is not exactly the right word in this case. It has to do with children… See, I don’t really want to have any and neither does my husband (or so he says) but it seems that the universe around is set on to prove us otherwise.
Everywhere I turn I see pregnant women and to make matters worse (for me, that is) all my best friends are either just having babies or getting pregnant! What’s going on?—I ask. Don’t get me wrong. I am extremely happy for all my girlfriends and their new additions to the families; however it kind of makes me wonder… No, not about having children myself; more along the lines why it is happening all at once. It cannot be a simple coincidence that all of my girlfriends are all of a sudden pregnant. And about the same time, mind you!
So I wonder what exactly the message here is and what I am supposed read out of it… Perhaps it is as simple as a fact that I’m going to be a sort of an aunt to all of these babies, right? Or perhaps my biological clock is ticking and I am plainly ignoring it altogether? The thing is I never really wanted to be a Mom and never actually felt the need for it, so the whole ‘biological clock’ and ‘mother instinct’ crap is really just that…
It gets on my nerves when people look at me in this strange way (almost as if there was something seriously wrong with me) when they hear I don’t want to have children of my own… It’s quite condescending, actually. As if all women are made to become mothers at some point or another, no question about it. And the only explanation for lack of such instincts could only be that there is something missing in your biological make up. As if it is so unthinkable and outlandish for anyone to understand that not every woman must become a mother or even feel inclined to it…
Perhaps I’m selfish because I love my life and my relationship with my husband just the way they are and I really don’t want them to change. Especially not the way a child would change that with its way of demanding attention at all times… Not that I don’t like children…I adore my nephew, for instance! However, it is different when they are somebody else’s and you know that towards the end of the day they will go back to their parents and you can return to the peaceful way your life is.
So possibly I am simply reading way too much into this universe stuff, right? And the timing could be a coincidence (well, am not quite sure about this one, since I don’t believe in coincidences). Well, when you come right down to it, we are of a certain age after all and I suppose certain things (like unusual number of pregnancies) will simply happen more often these days, right?