SimplyMaggies

I haven’t written anything these past two weeks although I have attempted this task many times (believe me!). However, it seemes every time I sat in front of my computer my mind went blank. And I mean really blank. Not a single thought….

I felt as though I have been drained out of all my creative abilities. And to top it all, my energy seemed to have vanished as well. Not a very good combination, I assure you.

So for the last two weeks I felt as if I was simply going through the motion ever day, putting one foot in front of the other and just trying to make it to the end of the day. And the culprit  for all this lack of (how should I put it???) life (???): my work, what else?

Yes, my work has been draining me and many a day I simply feel like I have to force myself to even get out of bed. The BS piles up at work and a new day does not bring better things. Quite contrary- it only makes things worse and the level of stress increases with each passing moment…

I NEED VACATION!!!!!

I tend to forget that life has these amazing ways of constantly knocking me off my feet (and not only in good ways). Today I had a reminder of that one simple truth.

One of my supervisors at work has been trying to have a meeting with me and my co-worker for about two weeks now but reality is what it is and sometimes it is simply impossible to make such plans happen. However, she finally managed to have a moment to spare and the meeting took place. To our surprise, all three supervisors were present (that is a Training Specialist, a manager and a director). A serious business, one would think but it was basically waste of time. To me at least…

Once again, I had to sit through an hour of pointing fingers and looking for a scapegoat. The worst of it is that I’m tired of paying for somebody else’s lack of qualifications or simply not doing their job, period! I bust my ass every day, perform my duties to the best of my abilities, don’t complain about lack of involvement on the part of my co-worker and here I was again—listening to the supervisors reprimanding us both. And why? Because they do not have guts to say it like it is and put the persons responsible for the screw-ups on the spot.

Don’t get me wrong. I am not looking for some empty praises or people patting me on my back saying what a great job I am doing. However, I would like to be left out of the equation when it comes down to hauling slackers over the coals. Not too much to ask for, now is it?

But the most shocking part of this whole meeting was the fact that one of the supervisors basically lied through her teeth and turned the tables on us, blatantly blaming us for the things she initiated, did and said in the past few months. My jaw dropped and I was so taken aback by the gall of her that I simply couldn’t respond and just sat there starring at her. No matter what we tried to say, it didn’t make a tiny bit of a difference.

So now I’m left utterly sickened by the way my unfortunate management takes care of issues. I also feel let down. The one person that we are supposed ask for help in difficult situations, has obviously turned her back on us and has done so in such an unprofessional and disgusting manner, it makes me not want to speak to her again. 

So I’m left asking myself one question—how am I supposed to even address this woman with work related issues if I cannot trust her as far as I can throw her?

Today is Michael Jackson’s funeral…

It seems so final and there really is no turning back, no waking up from a bad dream. The amazing persona is gone forever and so is the genius and the talent, which could result in so many more wonderful projects. This we will never get a chance to experience.

What makes me really sad is the fact that the media are creating a circus even after the man has died. And there are so many people trying to profit in any way possible (and screw the ethics) from Jackson’s death and, I’m sure, his funeral as well. Nobody seems to remember the man who influenced so many all over the world, changed the way pop culture evolved and was the biggest icon in the history of music thus far, just to name a few of his numerous achievements.

It saddens me that in order to create some controversy and capitalize on that, the media are bringing all the dirt from his past into light again instead of letting the people who loved him grieve in peace. It reminds me brutally that it’s a cruel world we live in. And Michael Jackson was a soft-spoken man with a big heart who wanted to change the world for the better. If only people had let him… Perhaps now, finally, he will have some peace…